Thursday, April 29, 2004
I’ve just realized that there is a point of time that changes things in my life, significantly. I mean it, significantly. What I mean is if only I did one thing, the other thing won’t happen.
I asked a friend to go somewhere with me in order for me to express my feeling, a kind of feeling that is not easily explained. That’s why I asked her out, only two of us. I was thinking if we spent our time in a more private way, I could find a solution to explain my feeling and could see her reaction. It didn’t happened. She rejected my offer. If she had accepted my offer to go, things would’nt have been the same.
Triggered by her rejection, I had this hopeless and doubful feeling and because of my hopelessness and doubt, I gave up.
I asked a friend to go somewhere with me in order for me to express my feeling, a kind of feeling that is not easily explained. That’s why I asked her out, only two of us. I was thinking if we spent our time in a more private way, I could find a solution to explain my feeling and could see her reaction. It didn’t happened. She rejected my offer. If she had accepted my offer to go, things would’nt have been the same.
Triggered by her rejection, I had this hopeless and doubful feeling and because of my hopelessness and doubt, I gave up.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
An ideal couple should cover for each other. If I am a serious person, my partner should be an easy going girl. If I am stubborn, she should not be stubborn either. That way, marriage life will be a balance.
I was about to decide to go for this girl until I realized that it wouldn’t work. In fact, I found her so attractive and promising. We shared same interests, we had the chemistry, our ways of thinking as well as level of education’re at the same level but unfortunately, she and I were not in a balance. I gave up and decided to pull myself out of the relationship.
I am not trying to say that an unbalanced relationship won’t work at all. You never know unless you could rewind the story of your life but life goes on...
I was about to decide to go for this girl until I realized that it wouldn’t work. In fact, I found her so attractive and promising. We shared same interests, we had the chemistry, our ways of thinking as well as level of education’re at the same level but unfortunately, she and I were not in a balance. I gave up and decided to pull myself out of the relationship.
I am not trying to say that an unbalanced relationship won’t work at all. You never know unless you could rewind the story of your life but life goes on...
Friday, April 23, 2004
It’s weekend again. I used to have this happy feeling on weekends imagining what I could do, listening to radio, watching my favourite TV but this kind of feeling has disappeared from me for long time. I guess as I grow older, I have more and more problems that make me streesful and worried.
Wish I could go back to my childhood, living happily in a small village, far from worries and fear.
Wish I could go back to my childhood, living happily in a small village, far from worries and fear.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
It’s crazy. I went home last night at 11 pm and reached home past midnight. It’s even crazier that I didn’t managed to reach my Tanjung Duren’s home but instead my wife’s resident at Petamburan because Tanjung Duren area was sorrounded by heavy flooding.
Traffic jam was everywhere. When I left my office at 11 pm, the traffic was still in a heavy jam. I left my car in the parking lot and instead I had somebody pick me up by a motorcycle. Can you imagine? I spent about one hour and half by riding a motorcycle, how if I insisted on driving my car that night? I would probably spend 3 hours. Crazy!
Traffic jam was everywhere. When I left my office at 11 pm, the traffic was still in a heavy jam. I left my car in the parking lot and instead I had somebody pick me up by a motorcycle. Can you imagine? I spent about one hour and half by riding a motorcycle, how if I insisted on driving my car that night? I would probably spend 3 hours. Crazy!
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
It’s very funny. I have an appointment with Sindy from Sistech Kharisma at her office in Jl. Juanda to discuss the translation of O2 PDA cum mobile phone this afternoon at 5.30 pm. So I left office at 4.30 pm from Sudirman heading to Juanda thinking that I would be there on time. You know what happened? I ended up going back to my office because I was stuck in the middle of heavy traffic jam. My car didn’t moved for one hour in Menteng area, so I decided to go back to my office. So here I am, typing this blog while sipping Indomie.
Heavy rain this afternoon for about two hours have ruined the traffic in Jakarta area. Flooding plus after office hour makes it even worse.
I have scheduled my meeting to tomorrow morning. Look forward to this translation job because I like this field, information technology. 0.05 usd per word is not bad at all.
Heavy rain this afternoon for about two hours have ruined the traffic in Jakarta area. Flooding plus after office hour makes it even worse.
I have scheduled my meeting to tomorrow morning. Look forward to this translation job because I like this field, information technology. 0.05 usd per word is not bad at all.
If a girl has a crush on a boy, it will be tougher compared a boy on a girl. It is a feeling that plays the main role and we all know that girls are more feeling oriented. She will have difficulties in conveying her feeling or she is too shy to do so.
Think if you like him and are sure that he is a good boy, then try to convey your feeling indirectly, show him you care about him, always keep in touch with him. That way, you will get to know him more deeply. Love is not easy, pray and hope to get the best.
People say it’s better to have someone who love you more than to love someone more but don’t forget that to give is better than to take.
Think if you like him and are sure that he is a good boy, then try to convey your feeling indirectly, show him you care about him, always keep in touch with him. That way, you will get to know him more deeply. Love is not easy, pray and hope to get the best.
People say it’s better to have someone who love you more than to love someone more but don’t forget that to give is better than to take.
Monday, April 19, 2004
Have been reading ‘Smart Saving and Borrowing for Ordinary Family” by Roy Sembel, published by Elex Media Komputindo. The book was introduced by one of the speakers when we joined pre-cana course several months ago.
My intention in reading this book is to get a picture how to manage our incomes, how to save money from our monthly salary.
The problem is I cannot put into practice what I have read. I end up spending more money than planned. I have no schema in spending and saving my income. Of course I set aside some money for saving but like I said before, I have no schema. I have no idea how much money that I should give to my wife, how much for monthly spending, how much for saving.
My intention in reading this book is to get a picture how to manage our incomes, how to save money from our monthly salary.
The problem is I cannot put into practice what I have read. I end up spending more money than planned. I have no schema in spending and saving my income. Of course I set aside some money for saving but like I said before, I have no schema. I have no idea how much money that I should give to my wife, how much for monthly spending, how much for saving.
Friday, April 16, 2004
Just realized my marriage has not reached two months. It’s less a week. I feel I have married for a long time. Why? Is it that I don’t really enjoy my wedding or I see my wedding as something ordinary or wedding for me is like graduation?
Appreciate it if anybody who have got married recently share their experience and for those who are going to get married, please take notice on the first two months of your wedding and share your feeling, lor.
Have a pleasant weekend.
Appreciate it if anybody who have got married recently share their experience and for those who are going to get married, please take notice on the first two months of your wedding and share your feeling, lor.
Have a pleasant weekend.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
I am ready to ship out Qui Bene Cantat Bis Orat. The CD contains songs frequently used in a mass in different style, from Misa de Angelis to local mass ranging from Kyrie, Sanctus, Offertory, Lord’s Prayer, Agnus Dei, Taize to songs dedicated to Mother Mary.
The CD will be sent to 35 arcdioceses in Indonesia. Along with the CD, I will also send cassettes of Rosary Prayer to welcome month of Mother Mary on May. A thousand CDs and ten thousand cassettes altogether.
The CD will be sent to 35 arcdioceses in Indonesia. Along with the CD, I will also send cassettes of Rosary Prayer to welcome month of Mother Mary on May. A thousand CDs and ten thousand cassettes altogether.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
It’s strange for me to learn that my wife always thinks I still get in touch with my girlfriends. Even if I do, what’s wrong with that? It’s like I am going to cheat her, not being honest about my past relationship. Girls......, strange.......
It’s true that I don’t talk much at home. I don’t talk about my activities at work, I also don’t ask about hers unless she starts first. That’s me. I fully realize this kind of attitude is not always good but you all know that habits die hard.
It’s true that I don’t talk much at home. I don’t talk about my activities at work, I also don’t ask about hers unless she starts first. That’s me. I fully realize this kind of attitude is not always good but you all know that habits die hard.
Monday, April 12, 2004
Just back from Singapore. I celebrated Easter there, Good Friday’s mass at Cathedral of Good Shepherd, Easter mass at the same church. The church were full, mostly foreigners.
On Friday’s mass, the priest delivered his speech about feeling thankful and happy on Good Friday besides sad feeling automatically arisen because of the death of Jesus. We must be thankful and glad because Jesus has sacrificed himself to save us. His speech answers my question whether I should be having sad or happy mood on the Friday and Saturday welcoming Easter day.
On Easter’s mass, we all renewed our baptism. The priest sprinkled holy water to us. Touched by the water, I made a cross sign and knelt down to remember my baptism more than ten years ago. I am renewed.
Happy Easter to you.
On Friday’s mass, the priest delivered his speech about feeling thankful and happy on Good Friday besides sad feeling automatically arisen because of the death of Jesus. We must be thankful and glad because Jesus has sacrificed himself to save us. His speech answers my question whether I should be having sad or happy mood on the Friday and Saturday welcoming Easter day.
On Easter’s mass, we all renewed our baptism. The priest sprinkled holy water to us. Touched by the water, I made a cross sign and knelt down to remember my baptism more than ten years ago. I am renewed.
Happy Easter to you.
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
My activities in the past three days was accompanied by stomach-ache. I sweated all the time enduring pain. Didn’t take any pills for killing pain, in fact I didn’t think of taking analgesic at all at that time.
I am getting aware and aware that I am not an easy-going man. I worry too much. What am I supposed to do? Think I’ll just have to live with it. I hope supports from friends and family will enlighten me.
I am getting aware and aware that I am not an easy-going man. I worry too much. What am I supposed to do? Think I’ll just have to live with it. I hope supports from friends and family will enlighten me.
Thursday, April 01, 2004
How’s my life after marriage? For me, I don’t feel any difference. Am I selfish? Probably. Why? I still do what I want to do, consequently I don’t allocate much of my time for us. I do things without consulting my wife which sometimes the decision made will not always please both of us. I am selfish, indeed.
My life after marriage is of course different from the one before marriage. If I am to choose, definitely I will choose the latter. Now I have a partner for sharing, from sharing stories, sharing a bed to sharing a salary. The bottom line is I have a partner. Two persons are better than one in journeying life.
My life after marriage is of course different from the one before marriage. If I am to choose, definitely I will choose the latter. Now I have a partner for sharing, from sharing stories, sharing a bed to sharing a salary. The bottom line is I have a partner. Two persons are better than one in journeying life.
